Early morning I woke up freshened up to the memories of him
taking a shower with me and waking me up by kissing me and cuddling with me,
playing with my hair...
I make just one mug of tea now and have cornflakes with
chocolate cookies all alone only smiling and crying sometimes as I miss his
presence in my life...
A year back exactly on this day he left home for work and
left me a message in an envelope with a packet he asked me to read it once he left.
I looked at him and told him not to go as I wanted to spend time with him just
watching him pamper me and taking all the attention from him.
He dragged his feet to leave home and I tried to stop
wearing his shirt and just tempting him to wait back “Naisha my Baby I have to
go to work you can’t be so unfair in letting me go this way so dry” he said I
laughed and hugged him bit his lips and he left. I read the note he left for me
“My wild Meow tonight I'll be back early light the candles and wear this sexy
gown I got for you I want to see you dance on ‘In Aankhon Ki Masti’ the way you
did when we went for our honeymoon” I jumped out of joy my husband still
remembers and waits for my performances I thought to myself..
Evening I waited for long for him to come all dressed and
excited with erotic music in the background and all scented candles lit I was
just looking at the door. It was 11 30 pm I started getting worried and tried
calling him several times he did not answer I called at his work place they
said he left at 6 pm.I began to worry and there I got a call “Your husband has
met with a bad accident kindly come to city hospital” for a few seconds I froze
and I could not hear anything I quickly gathered myself and rushed to the hospital.
At the hospital I saw a man apologising to me and crying “It’s
all my fault please forgive me” he said I could barely hear anything I wanted
to see Aditya my husband. Doctors had taken him to the operation theatre and I
was sitting there all numb waiting for the red lights to go off and see my husband.
Every second was heavy and urge to see him was slowing down as I was scared to
see him in pain. Those few hours I lived all our life just thinking about him
and our time spent. I prayed to God for his safety and life.
Red lights went off “I am sorry” doctor said I stared at him
badly “he is in coma” I rushed inside “Aditya” I cried hoping he would respond
but he was all bruised with eyes closed.
Years passed I had no complaints of him not responding I
knew he could see me hear me and want to love me I waited for him to just take
my name I continued to behave like the way it used to be earlier I woke up made
breakfast brushed his teeth shaved played with his hair everything was so
abnormal but I tried to make it normal. He cried sometimes I knew his wish was
left unanswered I made sure I dance everyday for him and make love and kiss him
and play around with him.
Not a single day would go with tears I was happy to have my
husband back after all. I was thankful to God as he gave me my life back... My
mother in law cried watching me smile and said she was lucky that her son made
right choice to marry me...
One morning he did not respond with a blink I touched his
face it was cold I felt his arms they were hard I called the doctor
“I want him back God don’t
take him away from me, my life lies in him bring my life back please” I scream .After 4 years after his accident he took
my soul mate away from me. I realised these were bonus days he granted him for me
but I am selfish I want him. You can’t be that mean it was not his fault please
bring him back I want him I cried after those long years of no tears.
Today I am left with so many memories with him and I dedicate
my life to him by helping street children and hoping he would be proud of me.
I love you Aditya and you are the best part of me...
I miss you...
